Does Lupus make your brain fried? I mean seriously. I can't remember stuff. Names of people. Names of objects, old memories just gone.
My attention span is really short too. I think the most I can concentrate is about 1 hour. I try to read a book and just can't read more than a few pages. I have to get up or move. I just hurts to sit in one position for too long. I tried to watch a movie but I cannot watch the whole thing without getting up and either peeing or eating something. (It's a good thing I don't have the energy or motivation to go out to the food store or I would be about 200lbs.)
My hips hurt from laying on my side I try to put pillows and blankets under me or around me to bolster the pressure points. Feet are all scratched up. I have scabs all over my right foot. It itched so much I didn't realize that I scratched myself.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
today at work
So I finally went to work today, Yay! Problem was I was standing on my feet all day and now my ankles are so swollen. Well not pitting edema swollen. But they feel hard to move.
So I was doing two scrub reliefs and found that when I put on my already sized up gloves that they are tight too. By the end of the year at this rate I am going to go from a size 6 1/2 to an 8. rrrwwrrrh.
Also was anxious the whole day. I wasn't until I got home and took xanax that I felt better. (I hope I am not getting addicted.) Maybe it was just the caffeine I had today. Have to go now as my wrists are hurting from typing this.
So I was doing two scrub reliefs and found that when I put on my already sized up gloves that they are tight too. By the end of the year at this rate I am going to go from a size 6 1/2 to an 8. rrrwwrrrh.
Also was anxious the whole day. I wasn't until I got home and took xanax that I felt better. (I hope I am not getting addicted.) Maybe it was just the caffeine I had today. Have to go now as my wrists are hurting from typing this.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Hard to write
Well, It's been a long time since I updated things. I have been to the doctors several times. Cried like a baby when he told me I might have fibromyalgia too. Changed antidepressants too. I think this is what is causing all of my anxiety.
My FMLA has finally been approved. Yay! I go to work about 2-3 days a week. I keep telling myself just to get ready and go. But I lay in bed and can'tkeep my eyes open even though I have probably sleep 10 hours.
And my brain fog seems to be getting whorse. My eyes go blurry at the end of the day. Depending on those glasses more and more.
Lost interest in alot of things. Nothing keeps my attention spand for very long. I feel like I have been stagnant for too long. Is it my job? Do I need to do something else? I hope not I do really like my job, but it seems while I am there I want to be elseware. What to do?
Its very lonely in the house all day. I am not good at keeping in contact with people so nobody calls me.
That's it for now.
My FMLA has finally been approved. Yay! I go to work about 2-3 days a week. I keep telling myself just to get ready and go. But I lay in bed and can'tkeep my eyes open even though I have probably sleep 10 hours.
And my brain fog seems to be getting whorse. My eyes go blurry at the end of the day. Depending on those glasses more and more.
Lost interest in alot of things. Nothing keeps my attention spand for very long. I feel like I have been stagnant for too long. Is it my job? Do I need to do something else? I hope not I do really like my job, but it seems while I am there I want to be elseware. What to do?
Its very lonely in the house all day. I am not good at keeping in contact with people so nobody calls me.
That's it for now.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Cute cats
For some reason cats are just too cute for me. Found this pic on this websitehttp://amolife.com/image/animals/cute-cats.html// I just love cats and am sad I no longer have one.
Body is okay today. No real issues. Really tired. I went out yesterday to meet a friend from the internet. I had a good time. It is nice to meet someone who has so many interest that are similar to your own. At least I know I am not alone.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Feel Weak
Okay so I wrote this whole post and published it on the wrong blog. How stupid. Then I couldn't figure out how to copy it to this post.
I am very tired and pooped. After staying home most of the weekend I went to target and walked around and I feel exhausted. When I came home and up the stairs I couldn't catch my breath. I think I will go to the mall tomorrow and walk around for exercise. Maybe this week I will check out the gym and see what the rates are. Maybe I will just walk on the tread mill.
I am very tired and pooped. After staying home most of the weekend I went to target and walked around and I feel exhausted. When I came home and up the stairs I couldn't catch my breath. I think I will go to the mall tomorrow and walk around for exercise. Maybe this week I will check out the gym and see what the rates are. Maybe I will just walk on the tread mill.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Random
I love this web site http://icanhascheezburger.com/ it has the funniest pictures of cat and it has links to a dog one too. This pic fits my mood today. Maybe I just need to talk about it.
What now?
Okay haven't written anything. But who cares nobody is reading anyway.
Now Doctor say may have fibromyalgia. f**&^%. Don't believe him. I thinks thats just a diagnosis that is given when they don't know what to call it. Crap. Aches and pains come and go. Not sure whats going on anyway. My arms hurt under my shoulders, my hands ie. wrists, sometimes my upperback and my knees. My memory hasn't gotten any better. Still cannot remember names of things. How frustrating!
I started on cymbalta. For the fibro. Don't know if it will work but gonna give it a try. Can't hurt. Already on SSRI and norepinehprin reuptake inhibitor. So maybe changing will help the depression too.
Now Doctor say may have fibromyalgia. f**&^%. Don't believe him. I thinks thats just a diagnosis that is given when they don't know what to call it. Crap. Aches and pains come and go. Not sure whats going on anyway. My arms hurt under my shoulders, my hands ie. wrists, sometimes my upperback and my knees. My memory hasn't gotten any better. Still cannot remember names of things. How frustrating!
I started on cymbalta. For the fibro. Don't know if it will work but gonna give it a try. Can't hurt. Already on SSRI and norepinehprin reuptake inhibitor. So maybe changing will help the depression too.
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